Pray

Salam aleik

Patutla..

Green Day did a song 'Wake me up when September Ends' and 

Awie did ' Tragedi Oktober'.

These two months memang sangat challenging!

So,

Saya banyak mendiamkan diri so that least people will get hurt.

Even my family pun tak berani tanya banyak.

Semua was and still putting forward decent questions and look in order to find ways to get through my silent rage.

At one point i was like..

" I just don't care, nak jadi apa jadila.."

This is one of my off-base-side.

I could be a girl next door whose very tolerable upon treating others.

I would say VERY.

At least i would try my very best.

Still, everyday i pat myself some limited courage to stick with the virtue of patience.

Since some words and actions from others are redundantly done without remembering that me too, comes with heart, ego, anger, hate and especially FEELING just like them.

But why could i keep my composure in dealing with them just for the sake of taking care of their heart?

Can't they do the same?

So, that's why i go silent.

I would love to come out with some 'heartless' words to them.

Just like they do.

But i just couldn't.

It will make me more hurtful since i will be reminded that i'v hurt others.

That's the never thing i would do.

Yes, silent is the best.

And the best time to realize how sinful i am to the Rabb.

How selfish i am to only remember Him when i'm aching because of dunya matters.

Shameful Farha..

***

Though to be patience is hard some times, i have to try to not put a limit towards this noble deed.

Not everybody has the guts to stay put on this.

Most will definitely try to hide their insecurities with ego and rage.

Pray hard for them.

Don't let them be in the path that draws them away from the Rabb since they might not know.

Don't join them. Pray for them.

And to you dear Farha,

Yes, patience has no limit even thou you feel like bursting.

You are imperfect as well.

You don't even know that somebody as well is trying their very best now

 to put up with your negative packages as well.

Remember that!

You are imperfect!

So breath easy on others and don't expect anything from them.

Expect recognition from Allah would do.

:)

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SEMOGA BERJAYA CIK GIRANG!

(hm kalau dah boleh perasan macam nie maksudnya dah kembali ok dan no more silent rage..hehe)